That was me yesterday. It has been building for months but it came to a head yesterday and I did lose it. I soooooooo hate it when that happens, but OH MY GOD WAS I PISSED!!!!
If this could only be easily done . I know there are people and circumstances that will make me angry, it is a way of life, but DAMN!!!!!
I also know that this is so true. But I don't forgive, and I don't forget very well. I know I should have compassion and let go of my anger because the only one it is hurting is me. But I am one who stuffs, mounts and dances a jig around the thing that has pissed me off. I know that this is not good for me and only hurts me, but sometimes I just can't let go.
So, I am going to try and do this - forget. Not completely, I do plan on doing something about the situation, but I plan on blanking the person out. That person ceases to exist. I know they won't stop pissing me off, but I will let it run off me like water. They are so not worth it!
So, I have made a decision, and I have a plan. Lori,
Studio Waterstone, had a post on Wednesday about
defining moments. I have to say that moment came to me on Friday, when the inkling I had finally came true. The only one who can make a difference is me!!!!! I have two goals now; I plan on making those goals come true.
I am awesome! Mom said it to me last night, and I have people reinforcing the same thing all the time. I let myself forget yesterday, and I WON'T let that happen again. No one, I mean no one should have that kind of power over me. For a while, I let that person have that power, and I am so disappointed at myself for letting that happen. No more.
As a friend told me, this event happened for a reason. Yesterday was my defining moment, grab it and run with it. I have already started in that direction, and I can't wait to see where it goes from here. I wish I could go into details of what happened, but I just can't. I just had to purge it from my system like toxic waste. I am ready - Bring It!!!!