That was me yesterday. It has been building for months but it came to a head yesterday and I did lose it. I soooooooo hate it when that happens, but OH MY GOD WAS I PISSED!!!!
If this could only be easily done . I know there are people and circumstances that will make me angry, it is a way of life, but DAMN!!!!!
I also know that this is so true. But I don't forgive, and I don't forget very well. I know I should have compassion and let go of my anger because the only one it is hurting is me. But I am one who stuffs, mounts and dances a jig around the thing that has pissed me off. I know that this is not good for me and only hurts me, but sometimes I just can't let go.
So, I am going to try and do this - forget. Not completely, I do plan on doing something about the situation, but I plan on blanking the person out. That person ceases to exist. I know they won't stop pissing me off, but I will let it run off me like water. They are so not worth it!
So, I have made a decision, and I have a plan. Lori,
Studio Waterstone, had a post on Wednesday about
defining moments. I have to say that moment came to me on Friday, when the inkling I had finally came true. The only one who can make a difference is me!!!!! I have two goals now; I plan on making those goals come true.
I am awesome! Mom said it to me last night, and I have people reinforcing the same thing all the time. I let myself forget yesterday, and I WON'T let that happen again. No one, I mean no one should have that kind of power over me. For a while, I let that person have that power, and I am so disappointed at myself for letting that happen. No more.
As a friend told me, this event happened for a reason. Yesterday was my defining moment, grab it and run with it. I have already started in that direction, and I can't wait to see where it goes from here. I wish I could go into details of what happened, but I just can't. I just had to purge it from my system like toxic waste. I am ready - Bring It!!!!
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." ~ Eleanor Roosevelt
ReplyDeleteI love that quote. And I am reminded of it frequently. If I get backed up into a corner it is one of my own making. I have the power to break through the wall and not let those bricks rain down on me.
You have that power as well. And I am so HAPPY to hear that you are turning that negative into a positive.
You ARE awesome.
You ARE worthy.
You ARE talented.
You ARE delightful.
Don't you forget it.
Enjoy the day!
Erin
Erin said it perfectly! You go girl!
ReplyDeleteYep Erin NAILED IT! I will e-mail you soon!
ReplyDeleteErin said exactly what I would have. You are awesome!
ReplyDeleteTwo thumbs up to you for taking a step in the right direction and putting toxin behind you. Erin gave some very good advise, so yeah, what she said. Wishing you and your Mother a wonderful Christmas and all of the best for the New Year.
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